what a crazy few months this has been. my mind and my emotions have been all over the place, from one extreme to the next.
i've been really sad-- presley's kindergarten year is OVER. she missed fun things like field trips, easter egg hunts, class parties, and all the excitement of the last day of school. she has no idea all the stuff she missed, but i know. and i hurt for her. also, dance classes, and therefore dance recital, were cancelled. we got to pick up the precious costume, with no dance to show for it. another ache in my heart.
and to top it all off, my parents were supposed to be here for a couple weeks at the end of may. now who knows if we will even be able to see them until next year, or worse? all the unknowns scare me.
i worry about our families back in texas. i worry for friends who are going through hard times, and we can't physically do anything. and i worry about all the political and racial divides our country is facing. we need unity more than ever.
i've also been really happy-- we've spent more time together as a family than ever. randy has been working from home every single day, and to be honest, i love having him here. i love knowing that we are all under the same roof, safe and sound. we have gotten into a routine, a new normal for the time being. i've always been a homebody, and being forced to stay home really doesn't bother me at all.
even though they've missed fun things they would have been able to do if things were normal, the kids seem to be really happy and unphased through it all. they are troopers. they are so resilient and flexible, and i'm so thankful they are the ages they are...i think that has a lot to do with it. we have also been able to spend time with our neighbors. we have had biweekly dinners, and even a trip to santa barbara.
i'm anxious to see what happens next. i know God has a plan, and none of this is a surprise to him. i just pray that it ends soon and we can take the lessons we've learned and move forward to be better and do better and love each other more.
